Jump, Rest

I am feeling massively overwhelmed these days. I used to think it was because I was in college while holding down two jobs or because I was teaching school, coaching cheerleaders, taking Master’s classes, etc., then I thought it was because I was pregnant while doing all of these things. Now, I am pretty sure it is because I take on too many commitments, procrastinate, and then try to do them all at once! Today alone I tried to prepare for a baby shower, go to an all-day crop with my sisters, prepare for church, attend a birthday party and a drag race, all while attempting to clean my house, care for my daughter, and <gasp> dare I kiss my husband!?!

Notice: I mentioned nothing about taking time for the Lord. I know He is my refuge, my strength, my joy. I know that His burden is light; mine is the one that overwhelms me while I endeavour to do it all on my own. When am I going to begin to leave it up to Him? How long until I realize that I have such a peace even in hectic times as long as He is in charge? It’s like hesitating to jump off a cliff even though I know that there is a large hand waiting to miraculously swoop in and cradle me. I’ve gotta let go–live simply–live faithfully–live peacefully. ‘Gotta take the jump and rest in Him.

It flies when you’re having fun!

Have you ever felt like you were in a time warp? I look back at June and think to myself, “Where did it go?” One day we had an 18-month-old, and the next day she’s a month older. Oh, I took 340 pictures, including her first trip to the zoo and her first taste of the ocean, but her life seems to be passing too quickly before my eyes! Then I realize that my life is passing all too quickly alongside hers!!

God whispers in my ear…sometimes thanks to other mothers…that Calli is only “on loan” to Michael and me. She is ours to train and to lead and to love, but she is ultimately in His hands. I am so blessed to have her as my daughter, and I am so glad to know that she is in God’s care. I am saying a special prayer tonight for the parents that I know and for those who I don’t know but who may read this. I am praying protection for your children and understanding and peace for you. May the Lord bless you and keep you in His all-encompassing love.